2 Firsts

June 19-29

- The past week has been busy and tiring. I worked last week for a few days and took Leighton with me. Then I tried to catch up from our little vacation. I had a lot of homework to do and a very messy house to clean and i couldn't figure out why but i was unbelievably.

- Friday Leighton turned 3 months old! I can't believe how much she has grown in so little time. In honor of her being three months i finally pulled out the camera and took some pictures, and i actually got a birth announcement finished.

- Friday night we went out to dinner at Centro (the new pizza place) with Teisha and Vance. It was so yummy and i even ate a pizza with goats cheese on it. It didn't seem to affect Leighton too much thank goodness. After we ate we played an epic game of risk. Teisha and i thought it was a good idea since we had been losing at settlers so badly lately. 5 hours later we decided we would just stick to settlers.

- Saturday my parents came up and we all (parents, sarah, kaden, leighton, and me) went for a drive up the mountain. We stopped in Mammoth Creek to look at cabins and lots and my parents fell in love with a lot right on the creek. Chances are they will own it pretty soon. Mom started buying stuff for her future cabin the moment we got back to Cedar. The drive was really nice but i was pretty drugged up. I woke up feeling very sick. Stuffy nose, head, and itchy throat, as well as the chills and a fever. Then Sunday after going to Logandale i decided Leighton had it too. Monday we both seemed to feel a little better like it was finally going away. Just Kidding it wasn't, Tuesday i woke up wanting to scream my ear hurt so bad and i knew i had an ear infection. Too scared to drive home to the doctor i went to the urgent care in Logandale. The PA looked in my ear and said "wow that a big white bulge alright, you have an ear infection and its going to burst." Uh and it did. Two lortab and a motrin and i could still feel it. The weirdest part was thinking that since i cant hear out of my ear that i shouldn't feel it either, but it doesn't work that way. Now i am just glad that Leighton has been getting better this week. I felt so sad that she had to experience her first cold.

Learned

- I have actually been thinking about this for the past couple of weeks but have been forgetting to write about it. This month it has been 5 years since i graduated high school. It is so weird how fast time goes by. I know that 5 years really isn't that long, but looking back 5 years ago i thought it would take forever to get to this point.

5 years ago i believed i would be best friends with the same people as i was in high school, i thought i would be one of the last in our grade to get married, but i knew i would marry someone from the valley, i didn't know what i wanted to do with my life but i knew i didn't want to go to college unless it was to brooks (photography school in santa barbara), i wanted to travel, i wanted to move to boston with Sarah when she graduated, and i mostly wanted to be far away from Logandale.

Here i am 5 years later. I was one of the first in my grade to get married. I did marry someone from the valley. I didn't go to photography school, and i am going to college so i can teach kindergarten, i do have a small photography business though. I have traveled to San Francisco and Alaska with my husband. We didn't go to Boston but Sarah and I both moved to Cedar and she lives with me. I never made it very far from Logandale. I learned very quickly that i could never be too far away from my family.

I think that with everything i wanted to experience within 5 years of graduating high school i have experienced more. Sometimes i get frustrated thinking i haven't accomplished enough. Especially when i see friends graduating and pursuing careers and going on fun adventures. But when i remind myself of everything that i have done in the past 5 years i feel like i have achieved something amazing. I have found my eternal companion and we have already started our lives together. Hopefully we have already lived through some of our hardest times. We survived our first year of marriage where we both learned to be less selfish and more giving, we quit both our jobs to go to school because we felt like the Lord wanted us too, we bought a house when we were only making minimum wage, and we had a baby purposely when we didn't have insurance. Most of our time together we have been relying on the Lord to bless us, but every time we have everything has worked out how it was supposed to. I found a passion in teaching and have already had my own classroom. My first year graduated I was given the opportunity to realize how important it is to get an education and I can not wait to help children start growing their love for learning. I have not traveled as much as i would have liked to, but i know i will and there is still plenty of time to see the world. In the past 5 years i have really come to know how important family is. Both Kaden and I are so grateful for our families. They have both supported us and loved us. They teach us so much and have taught us how we want to have our family. I feel like the most important thing in this life is family. Where would i be if i didn't have my husband and daughter? Or my parents and sisters? I am not quite sure how people can survive with out being close  to their family. I know i couldn't, hence I have never gone too far from Logandale.

Loved

- Leighton had two firsts this week. She rolled over and she had a cold. I hope that when she crawls for the first time or takes her first steps that it will happen exactly how her rolling over did. We were all sitting in the living room together and Leighton was asleep on the floor. Sarah all the sudden yelled to look at Leighton and when we did we saw her starting to roll over. Picture a snail trying to roll over. In slow motion she made her way from her stomach to her back while i took pictures the entire time. Once she was on her back we clapped, and laughed, and smiled, and baby talked we were so excited! Now there is no more laying her on the couch or bed, she is officially a floor baby and of course she is already practicing her army crawl. Her cold was not exciting, it was actually very sad. But all she wanted to do was be held and loved and cuddled. I could not pass that up. I held, and loved, and cuddled. I would even hold her through her naps. My math teacher extended my due dates for me because of us being sick and i took advantage of this time with Leighton. It is so sweet to be loved so much by a baby. I feel like she honestly glows with Love. She could't be anymore perfect and she loves me. It is so humbling to be loved by someone who is so close to perfection. Everyday i question whether or not i am worthy enough to raise such a beautiful little spirit. When i hold her she holds me back, and plays with my hair or rubs her precious hands on my arm or clings to my shirt, i just stare at her in amazement and hope that she knows how much she means to me.